Today is the first day it both looked like and felt like spring. Yesterday it looked like it, but it was cold (I say that with a burrrr in my voice). In fact there was rain, hail and even snow all around us. We never saw it but we felt it.
Went to my doctor today and explained that I am doing almost every thing right and cannot lose a single pound. So he finally confessed that some of my medication may be adding weight. So I am not just fighting my own stupidity, but my prescriptions as well. Go figure! I also argued that I no longer need pills for depression and wanted to be weaned off. So we went into why.
I was put on the pills when my wife died, then had the quantity upped when my son died. A couple years later I tried to get off those things and the stress of work caused me to get back on them. Well work went from bad to worse and now I have been on them 19 years. Yuck. I forgot I was still taking them. Since moving near my family my stress has gone way down. It doesn’t matter that I receive the least amount I have ever received – yes even than my first years of work. It doesn’t matter that some health problems have increased. Neither of those bothers me. I love life. So asked to get rid of those pills. The process has begun. Good! At least one more pill I can eliminate.
It’s Easter around here tomorrow. At least we are having our Easter lunch and Egg hunt. No enthusiasm seems to be developing for the egg hunt so I offered four prizes valued from $10 to $100. That is a little iffy. They are prints of some of my paintings. I have never sold a print near the $100 range to a friend, but it could be worth that much. Does that count? The low-end prizes are unframed prints. I don’t know if prizes will help or not, but it may increase my self worth just saying they are worth that much.
I don’t remember if I told you that I have developed a minor shake in my left hand. That’s a problem as I am left-handed. I am almost fearful to try to draw in case my hand shakes too much. I would rather think I could draw anytime I wanted, rather than learn I am too shaky to draw. It’s an illusion. Oh well. I must test it soon. I have been asked to be in a summer art show and I need new things. I know what I want to do; I just need to get started. Maybe next weekend.
2 comments:
Just an FYI :-) Going off the meds is going to take some time and you may experience some withdrawal. Hand shakes may be part of the path your going down now. I spent 25 years as an illustrator for screen printers and owned a screen print company. I know hand shaking, I've got the shakes from an opiate program I'm on. I'm lucky that most of my art is computer based. I have changed my "style" of freehand art to incorporate my hand tremors. Ain't it great getting older!! Just a laugh but I've been told that medical mary jane would lesson the shakes...(ha ha) I wonder what I'd draw!!!
I have been told I could draw the same things but it my look more like a Monet. I said no way. I drawing are not fuzzy, just wobbly.
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